I have been cycling all over the place for the last month. Up and down, many times a day. I know my meds are working because by now I would have normally lost it. My threshold is being tested severely and I am not breaking. In fact before I break I thought I would take the time to write a little.
My phrase to live by: I know I have a lot to pay forward…but I thought I was on a payment plan. LOL
I must have missed a few payments as both of my best friends are now homeless and I am still full of guests from another homeless family. OIY…..don’t get me wrong, I love to give. What I don’t love is when people I owe nothing to expect it. I am giving and giving and everyone expects me to keep giving. I simply cant give 24/7 and still remain true to myself. ‘
So how do I find a comfortable medium here? The only immediate route would be to get a portion of my routine back, but I don’t wish to explode to get it back…so the best I can do is write here and leave it all the higher powers that be.
It will get better. In the meantime it is up and down and side to side…..OIY